Post by Tic-Tac on Aug 3, 2014 5:36:46 GMT -5
Been a while...hasn't it?
I suppose, theres something I want to say, to you lot...for a few years, I hung out here in my youth. Typing a strange mish mash of stories, fascinated by a universe of dogs. A tiny universe, but a universe. Where I crafted a character, based on the statistics, that one, out of one hundred and one is not going to be entirely happy with the situation. Kidnapped, placed on a farm, you know the story.
And after a while, Sparky decided I was admin material. I had steady head, and some miniscule amounts of maturity that this bored seemed in dire need of.
I was also kind of a d!ck.
Lets get that out of the way. Maybe I liked my persona too much, maybe I just enjoyed teasing you lot with some minor acts of petty assholism.
But I was still a d!ck, and especially to Belchic, whom while I don't know if he necessarily deserved the torment I'm going to err on the side of "No, he probably didn't." I laid it on thick, and relentless in my pursuit of arrogance and ignorance.
I mean, a lot of the stuff I did I thought was funny...or snide, rude, and malicious. A lot of the things I did and said may have been...kind of mean.
or very mean.
Whichever you prefer, really. But time moved on, marched soundlessly through days, and weeks, and months, and years. I'm not a different person, now. I'm the same person, with different views. Wiser, maybe. Maybe not. But regardless, I guess I was to say that I'm sorry. I treated a lot of you unfairly...or perhaps, tactlessly. Oh I never abused my powers, never deleted any topics, or locked any, or banned, anyone...Regardless of threats to do so. I never wanted to take that step. And more often than not, I reacted with a severe lack of patience, to situations, that required more than I had, or I casually strolled about with a barrage of insults, and ill suited behavior for a gentlepup...like myself, if I should be so bold.
I'm sorry. Meaningless words for pain felt at the moment, and scarred over in the future. But I'm sorry, if any solace can be found in distant words from a long forgotten puppy. Perhaps you can forgive me. Perhaps not. It was a life time ago in another world. But pain lings long after it's source flickers out, and if you find that pain, I hope it may relieve you, that I am sorry. For what I did, what I said, and who I hurt.
I am sorry.
I suppose, theres something I want to say, to you lot...for a few years, I hung out here in my youth. Typing a strange mish mash of stories, fascinated by a universe of dogs. A tiny universe, but a universe. Where I crafted a character, based on the statistics, that one, out of one hundred and one is not going to be entirely happy with the situation. Kidnapped, placed on a farm, you know the story.
And after a while, Sparky decided I was admin material. I had steady head, and some miniscule amounts of maturity that this bored seemed in dire need of.
I was also kind of a d!ck.
Lets get that out of the way. Maybe I liked my persona too much, maybe I just enjoyed teasing you lot with some minor acts of petty assholism.
But I was still a d!ck, and especially to Belchic, whom while I don't know if he necessarily deserved the torment I'm going to err on the side of "No, he probably didn't." I laid it on thick, and relentless in my pursuit of arrogance and ignorance.
I mean, a lot of the stuff I did I thought was funny...or snide, rude, and malicious. A lot of the things I did and said may have been...kind of mean.
or very mean.
Whichever you prefer, really. But time moved on, marched soundlessly through days, and weeks, and months, and years. I'm not a different person, now. I'm the same person, with different views. Wiser, maybe. Maybe not. But regardless, I guess I was to say that I'm sorry. I treated a lot of you unfairly...or perhaps, tactlessly. Oh I never abused my powers, never deleted any topics, or locked any, or banned, anyone...Regardless of threats to do so. I never wanted to take that step. And more often than not, I reacted with a severe lack of patience, to situations, that required more than I had, or I casually strolled about with a barrage of insults, and ill suited behavior for a gentlepup...like myself, if I should be so bold.
I'm sorry. Meaningless words for pain felt at the moment, and scarred over in the future. But I'm sorry, if any solace can be found in distant words from a long forgotten puppy. Perhaps you can forgive me. Perhaps not. It was a life time ago in another world. But pain lings long after it's source flickers out, and if you find that pain, I hope it may relieve you, that I am sorry. For what I did, what I said, and who I hurt.
I am sorry.